What's on my mind? Today's List...

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1. Just when you think you're finally going to get a leg up on a situation, you get knocked down two pegs. It gets damn tiresome wearing that proverbial sandwich board that reads, "Kick me!"

2. I'm very tired. Like, curl up and sleep for days tired. I think it's a combination of my lack of sleep last night and all the stress I've been dealing with lately. My body wants and needs to shut down just to recoup.

3. We have a big decision to make very soon. It's a fish-or-cut-bait situation and it's not an easy one. There are pros and cons on both sides and honestly, I don't know which end of things we'll end up on. We're trying to act in the best interest of our kids but we don't want to act rashly and end up regretting it.

4. I put imitation crab meat in my salad for lunch. Normally, I love that stuff. Today? Too much. It's one of those situations where you ate so much of something that the mere thought of it makes you queasy.

5. At the risk of sounding like a true Californian...I. Am. FREEZING. Seriously, it's about 55ºF - 60ºF outside and all I want to do is bundle up in the warmest blanket we own. I can't get warm!

6. The state of California, well, it kind of sucks. A lot. I don't want to say why and even if you email and ask, I still won't divulge, but suffice it to say California, as a whole, sucks.

7. You know how you're not supposed to care about what people think? Yeah, well, I totally do. And if we make a decision vis-á-vis #3, I feel like all sorts of judgment will rain down on me. Judgments about things in general, the way I look now, the way things have turned out, etc. I know it's ridiculous and that I should just shut up about it, but it's on my mind.

8. I really, truly love "Friends." No matter how down and out we are, it always makes us laugh. Awesome show.

Home is where you keep your shit...

...and we have a lot of shit!

I was simply astounded by how much STUFF we have. Not just what we were keeping at my in-laws place, but how much was in storage. We've been in here since Saturday and we're still not completely unpacked.

Granted, we've been out and about nearly every day, buying MORE STUFF to cram into our new place. Mostly needs, but it's just more STUFF. I can't get away from it!

After six days, I have my kitchen mostly in order. Our living room is getting there. The desk/bookshelf area is a clusterf***, and the kids room and our room both are just catch-alls for what doesn't fit out here! I have to have it all in order by Saturday though, we're having company over.

I just don't understand how we fit all of that into a one-bedroom apartment and are having trouble fitting it all into a two-bedroom apartment that is not only bigger by 100 square feet, but also has twice the amount of storage. I'm baffled.